Make Me a Believer

In celebration of Andy Mineo's new album, "Uncomfortable", I've decided to write a post commemorating the launch. One particular song on the album stood out to me, and I want to take the time to talk about why it resonated. The song, as the title of this post says, is called "Make Me a Believer". The lyrics are as follows:

"Why is it so hard to love you?

Why is it so hard to love you?

You make it easy, but I make it hard

Oh my God

You take the blame when I don't deserve it, no, no

I break your heart, then I do it again, do it again

You give me patience when I keep you waitin'

I don't know why you call me your favorite, oh

"Are we for real or not? (tell me, tell me)

For real or not? (tell me, tell me)

Are we for real or not, I gotta know

(Tell me, tell me)

You're givin' me all you have

You saw me without my mask

But I can't change my past

So can you promise this gon' last

Make me a believer

Cause all I've ever seen is pain

Make me a believer

Promise me I'm not the same

Make me a believer

They tell me seein' is believin'

But all ever saw was the schemin'

All I ever saw was the people that I loved

They was gettin' up and leaving, throwin' peace signs

What's up, what's up, aye

What's up lately?

How did you love me?

You stayed when I went buggin'

You stayed

It's messin' with my head now, it's messin' with my head

Why you haven't left now?

I still can't guess, tell me"

The reason this song speaks to me is because it made me realize something; even as believers, we still have moments of unbelief, in which we question, doubt, and wonder if this God we worship really exists. Andy in the song takes the perspective of someone who can't wrap his head around God's love and grace. In many ways, I think we can all relate to this message, because while we know why God sent his son, why Jesus died, and why God loves us so, it's another thing to fully comprehend all of that. If you were a Christian that grew up in the church, that message was probably bashed over your head numerous times until we're desensitised to it. We might hear something groundbreaking from the gospel, but then we shelve it away, and miss the message, and therefore the point. If that's the angle we take in our life, of course we're going to miss a lot of the message. Do we really believe what we read? Or do we just take it and run with it because that's what we're suppose to do as Christians? Can we believe what God has done for us? In the midst of pain, of hurt, of destruction? Or do we shake our fist at the skies when the world turns on us?

And even when we're the problem, God doesn't leave us. I used to think that when I was deep in sin, God would leave me, and I would have to claw my way back to Him. But I know that this is a lie. I will never be able to understand how a perfectly holy God can perfectly love a sinner like me, and never leave me.

Lord, I pray that you make me a believer.

"Now Faith is being sure of what we hope for, and confident of what we cannot see."
-Hebrews 11:1